Downloaded Tumblr app to my phone. Maybe I’ll start tumbling now. At least write things that I want to tweet but are too long.

how quickly God responds to us sometimes, with opportunities to serve. And a lot of times nothing like what we were looking for but what He is looking for. I’m finding it part of my calling to better discern those opportunities. And the best place for better discernment is a place of intimacy with God. So that is where I want to be.

but no matter.

so I’m realizing this morning that I absolutely love when Jesus “tells off” Pharisees, of all people, who are trying to confront him. Such a beautiful image.

In the rain (:

we don’t worship to feel good about ourselves.  Worshiping isn’t meant to lift ourselves up or get goose bumps so we can put ourselves in better standing with God. No. Worship is plain and simple. Give God Glory.  Lift his name and say God, I love you. It is an outlet for us to give back this tiny bit of nothing we have to offer.

This can be a struggle. Leading worship is more complex than playing music for and about Jesus. It boils down to the heart and where it is at. It is also a work FOR God and can be WITH God but is not our primary source of walking WITH God. It is definitely a part, but one of many.

When I try to use worship as my foundation of my relationship with Christ, things don’t go too hot. I feel unsatisfied. It doesn’t feel like a accomplished much.  Well that because I wanted to serve a purpose other than what it is. My relationship with God is personal. It is meant to be intimate and deep and thorough through heart throbbing questions and studying to find the answers. Leading worship comes in turn. Because of my love for Christ, I want to use what God has graciously given me in my musical talents and offer them back to him through worship. I cannot look at leading worship as my time to worship. That is not my time. That is time I am offering to him to use. Me worshiping my Lord can come separate from that.

But here is the beauty.

When things like leading worship, in my case, or other acts we do out of love for Christ, are surrendered and offered to him, he does what he wants. He is going to use those things to reach all kinds of people. But because he has control of it, he can use those situations to work in us and move us too.

So in turn, not looking at (specifically) LEADING worship as a time to grow closer to Christ and surrendering it to him to work with, He works through the works that we offer.

I don’t really know how it happens. But it does. Experience is the deepest, most truthful evidence for anything. and thats where this is coming from.

So I walked out of school and instantly a smile comes to my face. The sight, smell and feel of a rainy day overwhelmed me with joy. It was a bit odd.

I mean, nothing against rainy days. I normally enjoy rainy days but not that much.

Its a part of God’s creation though. He made rain. It does cleanse things. And after being all rainy we look forward to the sunny day a lot more.

I guess I just think rain is pretty rad.

Father, reign down, just like the rain.